If you have any interest in Psychology, you know that it’s important to be able to forgive yourself.
If you can identify where a strange emotion or behavioral pattern comes from, you can learn to accept yourself instead of feeling guilty and ashamed.
I’ve been working on that for a while now. One of the things that I am deeply interested in is my Reliance on romantic relationships. For some reason, I have this whole damsel-in-distress thing about me. I guess I give off an energy of wanting to be taken care of. Frankly, I love providers so if someone does want to take care of me, I’m Head Over Heels. This can get me into some hot water, because I will essentially graft my co-dependence onto Hero types. Recently, I even miss took an HVAC technician for my knight in shining armor. I was at home alone and heard a terrible sound coming from the air conditioning condenser in the backyard. I ran out and found the AC system to be smoking, and making very strange sounds from the motor. I immediately called out the nearest heating cooling and ventilation service, and told them it was an emergency. I didn’t know what to do, because the house was rapidly getting hotter and hotter. Luckily, the HVAC technician showed up within only 20 minutes, and when I open the door I fawned over his masculine appearance. He fixed my air conditioning system and I was so relieved; I felt like he had saved me. Well, long story short, my hero complex kicked in as cool air flowed out. This morning I’m having massive difficulty forgiving myself for sleeping with my HVAC technician yesterday.